Amongst Lovely Things

figuring out my life.

i was talking with one of the deaf professor and she told me that i shouldn’t become an interpreter that should major in psych and minor in interpreting that way i can become a social worker and have more job opportunities. i don’t know if i would be good at that though. there are so many choices to make with school i just feel over whelmed. i need a plan, i need to decide on what to do. i wish i could sit down with Rosa and talk to her about it but i don’t want to bother her with it. But if i do that i could also work in the new mental hospital for the deaf that will be opening soon and that sounds like an awesome job. ive always wanted to work with “crazy” people. I just find them interesting. i seriously dont know what to do. crap. there are so many decisions i need to make. fuck. i worry too much about the future. 

but maybe i could get an a.s. in interpreting, take all the tests become certified and work as that and then transfer to usf and get a b.s. in psych and minor in deaf studies that way i would have so many different things i can do with those degrees and hopefully maybe one day i will be able to have a job kind of like Rosa’s. i mean i think that sounds like a great plan but i dont know.

it is so crazy to me that i have to pick what i want to do with my life. im only 19. how am i suppose to know what i want to do with the rest of my life already? what if in twenty years i hate the deaf ( i doubt i will but you what if) then what would i do? become a counselor and listen to people bitch and complain to me all day? i know i couldn’t do that, im not sensitive enough for that… id hurt peoples feelings, im too blunt. 

god, fuck. this is so much to take in and think about. but i feel like ive made up my mind. i think that would be a really good idea to get an a.s. in interpreting with all the certifications and then major in psychology and minor in deaf studies at usf. yeah.

wish me luck guys, because my life is really starting now i feel like. this is big. supper big. ah im nervous. 

I WANT A DEAF BOYFRIEND SO BADLY!